It can only get better..

Probably about time I wrote on this, it’s been a while. 

So I got back from Morocco on Friday. I was supposed to go to India but the flights fell through 6 hours before I was due to take off so for an hour I was literally going to every country in the world. It ended up being pretty much a flip of the coin going to Morocco. But it was really good there, nice and hot! But seriously overwhelming when we first landed in Marrakech because it was before tourist season so my friend and me were the only western people there and were getting abused from all angles. So we decided to get out of there and go to Essaouria. It was beautiful there but we carried on travelling down the coast towards the Sahara to a couple of places. Then back up to Marrakech via the Atlas Mountains that were amazingly beautiful. When we got back to Marrakech it was a completely different place to when we first got there. Other tourists meant I wasn't getting harassed as much. And by that time I realised the secret to surviving in Marrakech is to be rude, that seems to be all they understand. Overall was a great trip, got some funny stories and wicked memories, but the camera I borrowed off my friend got stolen so don't ask to see any photos... the wound is still fresh.

So that isn't all that relevant to uni, apart from my theme was India and I was supposed to go there to get pictures and photos and stuff. I was thinking about changing my theme to Morocco but I don't even have any photos plus there isn't any fashion in Morocco. So now I need to crack on with my skbook which I didn't really do much in because I knew I was going to India and I was going to take a skbook around with me to draw in and stick things in. I've come back to Bournemouth with a whole week to do work and none of my housemates are here so no distractions buttttt I'm losing the will to live. 

I feel like no matter how hard I try I still get average grades. I think I need to spend more time at uni even not during my lessons. But I hate being there even during my lessons because sometimes I think it’s a waste of time and most of the time I can be doing it at home. I know I've done terrible in the B&M essay and I barely passed Lectra. And if I get anything less than a 2:1 I will consider my whole time at uni one massive waste. Especially because I applied to uni and got rejected, and then went back to college for two years. So if I fail this then that will be all 5 years of my life since I finished school wasted and that will be 7 years wasted if I make it to the end of this course only getting a 2:2. All my friends have already been and gone to uni and have started living their lives. I definitely feel like it’s my time already!


Oh and I got some Indian fabric from an Asian Textile shop in Swindon. I didn't even like it very much but just started to get a bit desperate because I'm worried my design won't look very Indian. But I left it in Swindon so I can't use it even if I wanted to..